I just read the headlines that first responders are NOT invited to attend the 10th anniversary of 911. We will be denied access to the area. Many first responders, like me, are outraged.

My story:
On September 13th , 2001 I found a small hole in the bottom of a pit of rubble. I crawled inside and went 6 levels deeper..all the way to the flooded subways..this took a couple of hours to go one way. My respirator was clogged. I couldn’t get another one because the American Red Cross had kept the $750,000 worth of respirators, donated by 3M Corp, in their warehouse..for later sale. The president of 3M Corp told me that.

The 2nd and 3rd subterranean floors were still on fire. Black soot, jet fuel and eveything inside had been ‘particalized’ into the air. This thick gooey mess used my eyes, lungs, sinus and skin as a conduit for the poisons to fill my body. The laboratory tests showed a list 35 pages long of the most toxic poisons known to man..at levels up to 5,000X max normal. You can watch me search under the rubble by going to see one of my 100 rescue videos at youtube. I got sick but continued to go under the rubble until I passed out unconscious..too sick..to do anymore..I returned home on September 28th.

I spent 2 years close to death from my 911 injuries and ‘health issues’ continue to ‘rule’ my life. I continue to have 12 medical illnesses caused by toxins. At the worst point I had 47 simultaneous medical problems..symptoms. I couldn’t walk farther than 3 ft, I didn’t know my own name, I couldn’t speak, poison oozed out of my skin, I woke up ..everyday..vomiting with convulsions..etc..etc..etc..

I have been sick every day; since, September 13th, 2001. I moved to Cape Breton Island, Nova Scotia to be in a pristine environment..this reduced the frequency of my blackouts, whiteouts, immune system attacks, convulsions and cerebral edema attacks. I moved here for free medical treatment because I did not get 1 cent of compensation for a veritable mountain of medical treatment. I expected that the clean Cape Breton Island environment would allow me to live another 2 weeks. A NY Hospital offered to monitor my health with tests while I died. They got paid for the monitoring..but NO medical Treatment was to be provided.

I tried to get to 911 anniversaries on 3 previous occasions. I couldn’t make it. Pollution caused me to vomit, body swell, brain swell and on one occasion I would have died without an medical intervention.

Stubbornly, I had planned to go to the 10th anniversary ceremony…. possibly to help bring some closure to my 10 years of ‘living hell’ of pain and sickness. My wife did not want me to go..telling me that I will only get sicker again..and spend another month in bed..

Truly: The phrase ‘ADDING INSULT TO INJURY’ is appropriate.

I feel very sorry for the 911 first responders, in NYC, who are struggling to stay alive..suffering like hell..and they are ‘pissed on’.

Unfortunately, this is just another episode of disgusting treatment.

When I finally die from my 911 injuries my wife has agreed to throw my ashes off the Golden Gate Bridge. The Pacific Ocean will be my memorial.

The 911 first responders have no memorial….it reminds me of Charles Dickens…” They had better hurry-up and die”…because they are a nuisance.

In some ways; including this example, those who died immediately were the ‘lucky ones’.

Finally, I never expected any reward or recognition for anything I did during my 25 years as an unpaid volunteer or at 911; however, I didn’t expect to get ‘pissed on’ either.

Personally, I would do it all over again but I don’t think many first responders..sick and injured….and mistreated would.

First responders dieing from their 911 injuries will not have any memorial..and they arn’t even allowed to the ceremony honoring the victims …..we destroyed our health trying to save.

I feel physically ill like I want to vomit.